Life… as we know it

and at times you have to satisfy yourself with the fact that even though it got over, it did happen.

that they lived every second they were given and touched the sky every chance they had.

The day will grow on you
so will your shadows

the person you meet at the end is you.

Few words will remain unsaid,
few will be written but may never see the light of the day,
and rest will be wasted

in the end, everything is overcome and a life is lived.

PS: Lines 2,4 and 6 are by Mr. Irfan Kazi. Many thanks to him for making it so beautiful.

Shadows

shadows
i see them moving
running, walking
but they don’t see me
they ignore me
they leave me and walk away
they change their colors
they laugh when i cry
they mock
they jest at my
expressionless face
they, who bear no face
of their own.

The Brinjal writes…

What do you call a person who has not committed himself/herself to any particular political party? Who is not a bhakt or a “tard” of any party? Do you call them “thaali ka beingan”? If so then sir/madam you can call me so.

I am not a politics fanatic. I don’t have strong opinions, be it positive or negative, for any leader (except ‘few’ congressis). I cursorily follow the news and the happenings around the political scenario of the country. I often keep quiet and listen to the opinions of the people around me. And I often find them getting excited and perhaps a little aggressive too when they opine about their favourite political party or leader, even though I don’t say anything to contradict what they have to say, as my only purpose is listening to them.

At such times I really feel like holding them softly but firmly by their shoulders and telling them “calm down dude”. I can’t really question such fanatics. Mind you I have genuine questions and genuine doubts because I really have no pre-conceived notions or opinions about any party or leader.

If you ask me what is my opinion about Manmohan Singh, you might probably not like what I have to say. But then it is my opinion. Honestly I feel he was an extremely learned and educated person, who, if he would have really wanted and dared, could have turned the economy of our nation. Yes I do believe the popular notion that he was a puppet. And that was the biggest black mark of his career.
I ofcourse do not favour his puppeteer nor her pseudo-leader son (who I really feel is spineless). But then again we cannot ignore the fact that Congress has some really learned politicians (here I tread on caution as I really have no clue about their ulterior motives).

When it comes to the current ruling party of BJP, I really admire the work that our Prime Minister is doing. He is an excellent marketer and I am sure by the end of his tenure the premiere management institutes around the world would have incorporated lessons from his work model as part of their management case studies. I admire his work, as atleast he is doing “something” compared to the last 10 years of governance that this country has seen nothing but scams and more scams. For that I support him. Yes, I do support him, but I am not his ‘bhakt’. My funda is very clear — I will support anyone until he is working (even if they be baby steps) for the development of my country.

That being said, I want to continue with the point saying that yes, the PM is working. But I don’t hold the same opinion for all the leaders of that party. The party in question at times seem too “Hinduvadi”, not to ignore some of its so called leaders, the “babas and sants”, who go on jabbering utter non-sense day-in and day-out. Presence of such dimwits really makes me question the credibility of the ruling party. I really woe at the kind of blasphemous mouths that are  leading our country. Deep within I really wish that if only Mr. PM could get rid of such half-minds. As it is not being done even though being so obvious, I presume it might seem politically damaging to them. Once again here I see an instance of personal benefit taking precedence over the national health. But hey as they say nothing and no one is perfect and I am sure Mr. PM will have pretty strong and well fenced reasons for not doing so.

Let’s talk about the new kid on the block. The Delhi-Winners. Their leader seems to be an educated administrator, but he really has a lot to prove after the last stint. He has, in the real sense, got a second chance. I have no clue what lead to his victory. Was it their excellent freebie filled manifesto or  was it their intelligent strategies? Was it the over-confidence of their competitors or the sheer confused state? Or was it sheer luck? I really have no clue.  When he first came, he was a revolution, but he turned himself into a joke. Even after that Delhi has given him a chance again this time, which I hope he takes it seriously and not blow it away in hasty decisions. I, like millions, had instilled a kind of faith in him during his first stint. He had seemed young and dynamic and full of a zeal for revolution. Really don’t know what got to him later. That was when my opinion about him dwindled. But Delhi has decided, so once again I will convince myself and prepare to watch him perform. Yes, the expectations are back as I feel Mr. Kejriwal would have learnt from his previous mistakes. All we can do now is wait and watch what the show unfolds.

I am not an expert on politics. I am the lamest in that aspect. I dont belong either to the Right-Wing or to the Left-Wing (Hell I don’t even know what they stand for). I am not a Hindu or Muslim or Christian. I neither belong to any scheduled caste or minority or OBC. I am just another middle class Indian, who just likes to be informed about what is happening around. And all I want from these warring political parties is development of my country. I am not difficult to be convinced. And if you give me even a little assurance of betterment of my country I will support you. Mind you, I will support you, but not blindly follow you.

Before I close this post, I want to word this crazy thought that I had in my mind. All throughout school I was taught that it is important to participate, winning or losing is secondary. We should never stop making efforts. So the crazy thought of mine is why can’t the political parties and their respective leaders follow this. Just imagine, respecting their differences, if the leaders co-operate to work with each other for the betterment of the country, if only Modi and Kejriwal enter a kind of treaty and start working alongside each other. The thought kind of gives me a contentment. But as I told it’s a crazy thought and I know that I won’t see such a scenario in my mortal life. If only they were mere competitors and not enemies. Power is a dangerous thing of which I don’t have slightest of idea.

What I have put here is just my thoughts and ideas. I don’t mean to offend or oppose anyone by them. Infact you are free to correct me if I am wrong anywhere. But only correct me, don’t preach about your favourite political God to me. Because it would not change me and you would only end up wasting your time and energy.

After all I am a mere Brinjal.

Kickstart

Start writing again eh?
But what should I write about? It all feels empty in there. Or may be I am just a sad writer. As in, I write only when I am depressed or in going through a painful phase. That is not the quality of a good writer. That is how attention seekers write.

Chuck it. Someone yesterday told me I have this bad habit of deprecating myself. And I guess I am onto it again.

I have picked up this space after a really long time. A lot has happened in this long time. A lot of travelling has happened. A lot of shopping has happened. A lot of phone calls, a lot of messaging, a lot of crying, a lot of bonding, a lot of many things has happened since the last time I was here. And in other news I also got married.

No I am not going to preach about married life over here. I feel its a person’s very own experience and I have no rights to incline them to think in any which way about marriage. So let us just not dwell over that. Yes, there are a lot of experiences. A lot of feelings too. But once again I choose to keep them to myself. I may be saying that I am not putting it here because I don’t want to cloud anyone’s judgment but it can also be because I don’t have much to write about it yet. Or may be everything is just too haphazard in there that I am finding it difficult to give them a proper shape.

Haphazard – this has got to be my favourite word. Whether happy or sad, turbulent or calm, this is one word which never fails to describe the state of my mind. I have got to find another word. Or else I am just going to turn into a monotone soon.

I have been doing a lot of reading off late. Thanks to a very spl gift from him. Hmmmm… I guess now I have to give him a name. I don’t want to call him S, although his name starts with S. Shall we call him Mister or will it be just too OTT? Ok let’s call him BF. Best friend, boy friend or may be both. So for all purpose, from now on whenever I mention BF/Bf/bf and unless otherwise specified, it will refer to the one I am married to.

It’s almost been 3 months since we got married. And things and me in particular have been better. I have been travelling a lot. And I am in Bangalore to finally wind up everything so that I can give a proper kickstart to my life in my new hometown now. I have lots of new friends to make. I have a few old ones to be mended. And I have to give chance to the new me.

The new me? She is in a new place. A very busy one on that. It scares her. So she keeps hiding inside the house all the time. But she has to get out, otherwise how will she survive. So I have to probably make her recollect the stories of her initial struggle and remind her that she is not as coward as she makes herself to believe. Moreover it is a life that she chose for herself so she should be ready to face up to it.

She is once again the girl in the new city.  She has to survive. She has to live. And she has to do it fearlessly. Just the way she kickstarted it all. Wish her luck.